I Am A Dreamer

Had I been gifted with extra ordinary abilities, I would love to be able to freeze the time. I grew up watching “Charmed”, the story of three witch sisters who are intelligent, stunning and gifted with different power. Among the three, I’m especially yearning for Piper’s power in which she can freeze the time using her hands. How cool is that!..

Here’s the thing, I move slower than normal people. My friends could finish their 5-6-page assignment in just one night but I would take 2-3 days (depending on my mood) to finish the same thing. Then, when it comes to exam, I always found the time was not enough to finish answering the questions. grrrr….Frustrating. Even now, I wake at 4a.m. hoping that I can go to work before 6.30 because after 6.30, I’ll be having difficult time racing with the other oh-so-scary lorries and motorists in Pasir Gudang highway. Still, I’m always short of 5-10 minutes and hence, I need to face the cruel and inhumane drivers. Think about it, if I can freeze the time, then things would be different and I believe my cgpa would be 4.0 and I can straight away finish my PhD and I can drive peacefully and I don’t have to rush things and..yeah, many things would be different

Besides, I’m always dreaming to be a “jumper” or Hiro Nakamura so that I can teleport myself wherever I need to. I always have this fantasy whenever I’m stuck in a traffic jam or whenever I got lost and I don’t know how to get home. You see, I’m still a loser in driving and memorizing location. If I had this ability, I don’t have to drive (which is the thing that makes me feel hopeless the most) and I don’t have to top-up the fuel for my car. Filling up the tank with petrol scares me a lot. I’m so worried that the tank might explode. Whenever I have to do this, I would hold the petrol trigger with the tips of my fingers only and I would stand really really far from my tank. Somehow, doing that makes me feels safe.

One more thing, I wish to be able to speak and understand a new language just by listening to people who speak the language..Whoa!!! Give me that! Give me that! I have this fantasy when people use other language to talk about me, thinking that I wouldn’t understand. If I have that ability, I can tell them straight to their face that they are not the only ones who can speak the language. Then, I want to laugh at their surprised faces. Huh!

The other super human ability that I wish for is to eat and binge out without gaining extra unwanted kilos. Sigh~~What kind of wish is that.. I know..Still, I wish I can just eat those carbs and high-calorie elements without causing any harm to my health and having flabby areas here and there. I wish.. I wish…


Then, this morning, I woke up looking at myself in the mirror and all I saw is the same powerless Dia Widyawati